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[04 Apr 2007|03:22pm] |
LJ HATES ME THAT IS ALL
HAPPY ONE YEAR MATT :')
SOON CELEBRATING ANOTHER PERFECT YEAR WITH SOMEONE ELSE MY PERFECT WIFE :')
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[26 Feb 2007|04:54pm] |
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we're gonna find our way home
getting lost in the whirlwind of towns that pass me by
sometimes the meaning of home gets lost
lost in the number of names i hear a day
i meet so many people and can only remember my own name
everything seems to be going in the right direction
up up up
yet my mind keeps taking me in another direction
down down down
the only things that keep me sane are the people and possessions i hold dear
my wife my best friend my band
left side, strong side
it's the truest thing
my life is another cliche line from another cliche song
the prettiest cliche
the overrated cliche
the underestimated cliche
the.. broken.. cliche
let me repeat this for you
my life is another cliche line from another cliche song
we're gonna make it big or we're gonna be another cd lost among wannabes
you won't find me next to backstreet boys or nsync
the lowliest of the low
to be completely honest you're not like all the rest
it's another love lost in the ocean
bottled up and sinking slowly
writing a break up letter and sending it off
the sea will take it where it belongs
the bottom of the ocean i hope
this love is meant to last forever
can it last forever
forever is a long time...
give me hope
a reason to breathe
a reason to wake up
strip me of my insecurities
strip me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAQcNo9yWbM
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brain dead but still running my mouth
i've got a thousand things to say but no voice to say it
there aren't enough words in the english dictionary for me to say what i've been dying to say
i've been dying to stay
and only staying to die
i'm lucky to be in love
the only thing that is making sense
loving to be loved
i've got my other half back
the pumba to my simon
the brain to my pinky
the chandler to my joey
the karen to my jack
the list is endless
weareeverythingyouwishyoucouldbe.
being sick doesn't mean anything when he is around
the months were lonely without him
i don't mean in that way...
i mean
i was lonely without my best friend
the one i can run to and he'll know exactly what's up
the one who can make me smile just by ranting about something
the one who can read my mind better than i can myself
i have my fatty matty back
i have my sanity back because he is insane
i still am suffering from writers block
forgive me
enjoy........
( perfect end to this update )
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[19 Dec 2006|03:47pm] |
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something significant here soon i promise you :-\
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[26 Nov 2006|09:59pm] |
hi guys, this is audrey. i don't know if any of you have noticed shaant's new default, but i just did and it's pretty studly if i do say so myself. i just noticed. does that make me a bad wife? i'm going to use the excuse that i have been without a computer for a week or so, which is why i haven't seen it, but i approve! now if you don't want to end up puking, you might not want to keep reading, and so far i have just rambled because i'm not use to writing paragraphs. once i get myself a glass of ginger ale and tune out the sound of shaant singing 'be our guest,' i can get to the second paragraph. he doesn't feel like updating, which is why i am taking the responsibility of doing it for him.
if you didn't know, shaant and i have been married for a little while now. six months if you don't count the little break we had. i won't get into that whole thing because i'm sure everyone already has their opinion on it, and we know we felt about the situation. just a word of advice to anyone who reads this, don't take anything for granted and don't forget what or who is most important to you. i'm so lucky to have him back, and i don't know what i would have done otherwise. there's no feeling worse than not having your husband next to you in the bed anymore. he is one of the most amazing people i have ever met, and i am so in love with him. there's probably no way to describe it to the extent that i feel it, but i'm better with words here than i am in person, so hopefully this means something.
since i covered the past, i might as well move onto the present on future. he's on tour now, and i'm obviously tagging along because i have no life otherwise. i think we go back home to new york in early december, and i absolutely cannot wait. i can't wait to sit around the apartment in pajamas eating sushi with the puppy (i don't think we're ever going to call him by his real name). i'd like to think that decades from now, we'll be able to do the same thing and maybe have a family of real live human beings instead of furry animals. though i supppose then we couldn't terrorize other people's beds or erm dress up anymore, but we'll have the memories to look back on. i guess this is more of an update for him then for anyone else, but i don't have the balls to say things in person so i have to express it here, as mentioned before. i think we're at our strongest now, and i hope it stays like this for a long time. this is the only boy i'll ever love, and i want to be with him forever. okay, here is where i get embarassed, end the entry, and get into bed with my husband. bye guys. :-[
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[07 Nov 2006|12:00am] |
auds is violent: I'M GONNA STRANGLE YOU IN YOUR SLEEP :-)
cute is shaant: O OK THANK YOU I WILL LOVE IT
auds is violent: I BET YOU'LL BE LIKE O WUTS SHE DOIN HOVERIN OVA ME LYKE DAT AND THEN YOU'LL BE CHOKING AHAH
today is my birthday and i only told a total of two people so i am not expecting a lot of recognition for my twentieth birthday. and honestly, i am not really hoping for a hundred birthday posts. i'll be happy with the few i will manage to get because, that is all i deserve. i'm turning twenty and i am celebrating my birthday in maryland and the fans will no doubt make it memorable. that is all i can ask for though, and that will be all i need. that and whatever audrey and matt have in store for me, which i know audrey plans on murdering me and i am quite excited for it. i wonder how she will do it. will it be with a pillow over my face, or with her bare hands? hmm...
people always ask how it feels to be one year older when your birthday strolls around, but how would you know? it's not like you slept the year away woke up on your birthday and all of a sudden feel more mature. you lived the entire year with ups and downs, highs and lows, enjoyments and disappointments. everyday is a new day and everyday i feel a day older. it doesn't make much difference that the day brings your age up another number, everyday has managed to mold me into the man i have become and am becoming.
some of the friends that i will be spending the day with include tom, jack, jeff, and audrey who managed to make a visit to maryland in honor of this special occasion. tom, i know is going to make a wisecrack about how old i am and getting older, but he will make my birthday worthwhile at least. jack, it is still hard to determine what he will do for my birthday, probably get me an amazing present and tell me how great i am in which i will respond with a wink and pinch his ass when he walks away. kidding! and jeff, that nutso will probably write a story about how me and jack get together because that dick is so great at writing stories and not updating. and audrey, well i have already said how memorable she is going to make it. but honestly, she is the one person i would probably be depressed if i didn't get to spend my birthday with her. she has become a huge part of my life and even with the rough patches is still a huge part of my life. things have made their way back to normal, and our conversations have never been better. i have to say i have missed her company and i am so glad things are the way they are now so that we can be together for my birthday.
and then there are people i won't be spending my birthday with, like matt, molly, my mom and dad, etc. i don't even now who to include and would feel bad if i left someone out. but you are all close to my heart and i wish i could be spending it with you as well, especially matt because i know we would make a special day out of it all. maryland would probably ban us from the state for the rest of our lives not that it makes a big difference to you because you are never touring long enough to go to maryland. but still i know you have good intentions, but you should just form a new band or kick sonny out. he honestly isn't that good anyways. this is a good time to end.
happy birthday to me, shaant timothy hacikyan. it was nice knowing you. audrey, do me in.
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[25 Oct 2006|05:08pm] |
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there is a dizzy spell coming in
it's going to be named after you
and everything i put you through
life never was very fair
especially to me and you
it's moving on
it's passing us by
we sit underneath the staircase
history passing before our eyes
smiles, laughs, tears, fights
the hugs and kisses intermingled in between
now the romance is lost between sheets of broken misery
nostalgia never meant much to me until i saw your name in lights
fame and fortune are nothing and you are everything
two weeks and still depressed and broken
sickness is weighing down on top of that
not everything is what it seems...
i don't want this to be this way
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) marinj please add him, it would mean a lot to me
hips and lips are nothing i look forward to
playing pretend to break a girls heart
and i am so cold
in fact i am chilled to the bone
hoodies can't keep me warm
jackets can't keep me warm
blankets can't keep me warm
warmth doesn't even exist anymore
there is a dizzy spell coming in
it's going to be named after you
and everything i put you through...
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matt: WHENNNNN I SAY SHAANT YOU SAY KNOBLAUCH
matt: SHAANT
shaant: KNOBLAUCH
matt: SHAANT
shaant: KNOBLAUCH
someone is bound to appreciate all my broken pieces
i'm sitting on the clearance rack
there is a sticker on me
"fragile, handle with care, some pieces may be missing"
the only piece playing hide and seek is the object on the left side of my chest
it used to beat with a steady rhythm
now it's a deafening whisper
i am the catchiest catch
the shackles on my arms were ripped apart
the chains rusted from tears wept
forced tears
you can't cry over something you didn't care about anymore
and i grew to stop caring
but that didn't stop you from playing pretend
i was your doll to play and make fit your lifestyle
but i am like pinnochio
i'm a real boy who keeps telling lies
if it were realistic, my nose would circle around the world
taking on the universe in more ways than one
five months and an affair to remember
cheating isn't just a physical act
and my lovers have been numerous
is that what you want to hear?
these words are a waste of the breath
you've heard them thousands of times before
and you've always heard it from me
this lie is something you will never get rid of
infested
it could be worse
i left everything unfinished
and this is being left unfinished
oh shhh it doesn't matter
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[28 Sep 2006|05:07pm] |
find yourself a girl, and settle down live a simple life in a quiet town steady as she goes (steady as she goes) steady as she goes (steady as she goes) so steady as she goes your friends have shown a kink in the single life you've had too much to think, now you need a wife steady as she goes (steady as she goes) so steady as she goes (steady as she goes) well here we go again, you've found yourself a friend, that knows you well but no matter what you do, you'll always feel as though you tripped and fell
i'm missing your bed i never sleep avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, and this bottle of beast is taking me home i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets but you're not alone, and you're not discreet make sure i know who's taking you home. i'm reading your note over again there's not a word that i comprehend, except when you signed it "i will love you always and forever." well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out but as for me, i wish that i was anywhere with anyone making out.
he's more than a man and this is more than love the reason that the sky is blue the clouds are rolling in because i'm gone again and to him i just can't be true and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that i am happy with some other guy i can see him dying i don't wanna do this anymore i don't wanna be the reason why everytime i walk out the door i see him die a little more inside i don't wanna hurt him anymore i don't wanna take away his life i don't wanna be... a murderer
did i disappoint you or let you down? should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'cause i saw the end before we'd begun, yes i saw you were blinded and i knew i had won. so i took what's mine by eternal right. took your soul out into the night. it may be over but it won't stop there, i am here for you if you'd only care. you touched my heart you touched my soul. you changed my life and all my goals. and love is blind and that i knew when, my heart was blinded by you. i've kissed your lips and held your hand. shared your dreams and shared your bed. i know you well, i know your smell. i've been addicted to you. goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend. you have been the one. you have been the one for me.
please just don't play with me my paper heart will bleed this wait for destiny won't do be with me please i beseech you simple things, that make you run away catch you if i can tears fall, down your face the taste, is something new something that i know moving on is, easiest when i am around you. so bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea, watch it away as you cry a year has passed the seasons go
sometimes i watch you while you're sleeping so amazed at how pretty you are i wonder what it is you're dreaming sometimes where your mind goes and just how far is it me that makes you smile when your dreaming or could it be the other man you're seeing i'll guess i'll ask you in the morning right before i pack my things and walk right out the door i'll guess i'll ask you in the morning i'll pretend we're still in love tonight 'cause we won't be anymore
is it still me that makes you sweat? am i who you think about in bed? when the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress? then think of what you did and how i hope to god he was worth it. when the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin. i've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me girl i was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? no, no, no, you know it will always just be me
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[19 Sep 2006|01:59am] |
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everything that once made sense lost it's meaning
it's disappearing beneath the deep, blue sea
the farther the plane takes me away
the farther i leave behind everything to remind me
solving problems through my bitter silence
this touch and go romance decided my fate
and now the late night affair is surfacing
one-on-one is more fun anways
this disturbing fate was only caused by my own insecurity
i feel as sane as an inmate with a life sentence
this is my own life sentence
deciding my own fate
acting as my own jury
judge, lawyer and victim
this is a single actor cast
an ensemble of everything that is wrong with him
his heart a wounded, exposed joke to everyone in the audience
and she is sitting front row center
the smirk on her face more visible than the exit signs he's been watching
memorizing his easiest escape routes
"the quicker the better"
his mantra for the night repeated in his mind
as his act slowly came to a close
the acoustic in hand
the final song to ever escape his lips
the dedication
the final dedication
you can't keep me from feeling down
too much is happening to make me smile
the pressure is weighing down
and my eyes are seeing something new
something they should have seen a long time ago
paranoia and insomnia don't mix
i need a pill to flush away the feelings
but i don't want to fall into your addiction
my one and only weakness
speak
every word will be heard
every direction followed to the t.
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[11 Sep 2006|11:17pm] |
SHAANT I SIGN INTO YOUR ACCOUNT AND EVERYTHING GOES WACKY I'M NOT USED TO THIS CRAZY THEME SDLVFS.
I WONDER IF YOU'LL NOTICE THIS.
LOVE YOUR FAV FATTY
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[05 Sep 2006|03:13pm] |
i'll have a real update later, like a real one that isn't short and crappy and ends on a random note, but look at this.
i am quitting myspace/life. lmao ... pete's growly face
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